Wow. I didn't realize how long ints been since I've been out here.

High school, so far, is great! I mean, I miss every one, truely, but I think stepping away from so much...drama? has been good for me. Yeah, I have my issues, which I refuse to go into since there really is no point to whining, but nothing some friends (Cory, Jaswin, Amy, Hanna, and sometimes Mel)can't help out with every now and then.

So, what new? Saturday night, I woke up at about 1:30am and heard some one, some guy, singing. It was amazing. I ran upstairs and opened my window to listen to him. His voice was liquid perfection. If was full of silky smooth sorrow that was soo addicting. And as I layed there, the cool night air caressing my arms and tickling my neck, I thought long and hard about what i wanted from life. Emptiness can't be everything, can it? There has to be some sort of love, some fulfillment, that people everyday find and hold on to. But what was that for me, I wondered? I need some one like me, some one who understands me and can give me advise. Nothing, absolutly nothing, came to mind. Not even my tech-savvy boyfriend. I love him. I really do! But...hes oh so far away. What can he offer to me here and now? Unfortunately, not the comfort of love that I need. My friends are doing good right now. Maybe thats just it.Maybe I need to let some of my worries go. Throw out the puzzel pieces that dont pelong in this jigsaw. I don't know. I am so conflicted right now. Maybe its best to...well, I just don't know. Maybe it will come to me. In the mean time, I'm not going to make any dramatic desisions.(sp)